Let's not blow things out of proportion here...

So I am shamelessly obsessed with Heath Ledger's Joker performance now :|

I could go on and on about how I was affected and impressed by that movie, but thousands of people have done it already in a far more professional, sensible, and dignified way. And it kinda sucks that this has happened... you know, considering what happened to the man and all.

I had no idea who Heath Ledger was when I had heard he died-- I still have yet to see Brokeback Mountain (though I'm about to in an hour or so) and the only other time I'd seen him on screen I didn't really pay much attention to the movie (in the Brother's Grimm as I've just discovered). I'm sure his popularity must have increased tenfold at least due to his performance in TDK and I must admit that I'm one of those many, but I really regret not having known of him sooner. Though then again, maybe it's less depressing this way :/

But seriously, the Joker is one of the best acts I've ever seen. Wait, no. It was the best, period, in my personal opinion. I still get a little irritated when I see people accusing the movie and the Joker's success as a direct result of Ledger's death because I know I'm not the only one who saw the movie preview and thought "holy crap that guy looks really awesome D: I need to see this movie ASAP" without realizing at the time who the guy even was. Hell, I still didn't know who he was until after I saw the movie and did some rabid fan-obsessiveinternet research to see what kind of person it was that could move me in such an inexplicable way. Srsly, I have no idea what to make of my obsession xD (But I assure you it's no fan-girl crush or anything-- just an overwhelming admiration and fascination for Ledger and the Joker respectively.)

It's true I've always enjoyed those movies involving antisocial, schizophrenic, or some such other mentally afflicted sort of serial murderer who's cold-hearted or morally lacking yet highly intelligent, and the Joker displayed just about all of this and much more, which in the movies pretty much equals ultimate win in my book. I'd give anything to see the Joker in another movie but it probably just wouldn't be the same. Ledger pretty much became the character in order to make it so convincing and it is that dedication to self-improvement and the ability to accept imperfection while remaining confident in your own abilities that I found so iconic. In the past I've for the most part avoided the celebrity/movie-star "craze" and idolatry thinking it was on the verge of seeming petty and even a little shallow, but I think this time I can make an exception, even if it's just because his Joker really did put a constant smile on face in each and every appearance he had C:

I really have no idea why I wrote all this out other than the fact that I probably just needed to vent the bottled up sense of awesome, win, and epic. I can't take it anymore D: Maybe I need counseling. Or maybe I just need to see the movie two or thirty times to get it out of my system. I would really like to see it in an IMAX theater but I think I may have to wait to be in Chicago first :/ And maybe make some friends who will go with me and fast, before it's out of theaters xD

Oh, and here's some fanart that I F-ed up with a weird pose. I don't think my attempt at intimidation was very successful ~_~ It looked alright at first >:| I didn't have the heart to fix it though since after I took a break from it two days ago and read some sad articles about Ledger's death I couldn't look at it anymore. But I will forever love the Joker for dressing as a nurse. I do love a man in uniform +0+

Edit: Oh yeah, and Akatsuki sucks now :[ Thanks, thanks a lot Sasuke. _Ass.

Inadequate

A real speedpaint, for once. Her name is Lily, which I stole from one of the frogs from Animal Crossing. Ignore the spaghetti arms. And inconsistent shading. And other stuff.

Happy summer days *-*










Still working on this and was originally intending to add in Lee to complete the team, but I'm not really sure I even want to continue. I'm really starting to lose faith in my abilities :/ I feel like I've come such a long way since I started to really draw almost exactly a year ago and yet I have so much more to go and I keep getting discouraged. I'm not really even sure why I feel like this all the time, off and on ~_~ I guess I must continue to be patient and wade through more crappy productions until I can finally feel accomplished and better as an artist.

Standoff

I'm afraid to put this up out of sheer amounts of stupidness D: (Yes, she's pretending to be pointing a gun with her fingers.) But I had fun actually making it. I have no explanation for it, though I really had the urge to make something with this color scheme so I attempted a not-so-speedy speed paint. Don't be surprised to see a more developed image using a similar idea since I kinda like the colors and want to make something with them that actually looks good.

And I tried changing my layout, as you can see, but got bored halfway through ;_; Who knows how long it'll stay stuck like this.

Nom

More WIPS. After that week full of nonstop Harry Potter absorption I sorta lost my desire to draw much Dx Hopefully it comes back. This is just some stuff I have been working on but took a break from.



The first image is like my third attempt at bookmark things for as many Naruto characters as I could do (planning a total of 51 atm @_@ Got 22 done) but as soon as I take a short break from them and then come back they start to look uglier and uglier and so I just stop doing them... >:| I definitely have to go back and fix most of 'em all over again-- so many that it would be more efficient to make a list of ones that are ok Dx;; But I will persist~




This is "The Harvester", an unoriginal and weird interpretation of autumn. I'm planning on doing all four seasons (since Autumn is holding on to a ribbon belonging to Spring) but who knows. Not much ever comes from me putting up WIPs though :< I end up trashing most things I put here before I finish.


The last are more developed sprites. Hopefully that's not the finished version of a main character because he looks so... meh xP But the importance of it is that I finally have a base to work off of for others. I'm not too sure how I feel about doing pixel art :/ I either have fun doing it or get too frustrated or bored being limited so few pixels.

Gwar

One day I swear I will actually finish/change the layout style and images Dx Blah.

Well yesterday I got back from A-kon 19 which was tons of fun, though it seemed like it was lacking a little when compared to the prior year :/ It sort of felt like I wasn't as much of a part of the con as last year, but it's hard to tell what it really was that was different. I also didn't really get all that much this time around except some cute pins, some pokemon figurines that weren't Arcanines or Growliths >:< , a squid (from Mario Sunshine) keychain thing, and an Akatsuki cloud T-shirt (finally found one >:O). I'm not that disappointed with what I got except the fact that I brought far too little money ;__; Oh well. Also, my poor Tobi mask kept falling apart at the Velcro and so that wasn't all that pleasant to wear;; At least a lot of the art I saw in the artist alley was inspiring~ Oh how I wish I could be as good as people like that already..

On another note, my dad and I have been brainstorming a game we could make together. For the past few months now we had been trying very unsuccessfully to think up a product we could sell online that would be useful to others or some sort of service that would attract visitors in order to make money in a different way than just work. It's likely that we'll be going further with the idea and so I'll have stuff to keep me busy with all summer. So far we've decided that it would be a pixel-y tiled game thing (like RO or Pokemon) but I have no idea about the actual story, setting, or purpose yet xD I was playing around a little with character design and made my first moving sprites ever :O It was amusing to do, especially trying to get them to look like they weren't dancing in place or jumping..;;

It's a start I guess.

And I have no idea what I'm doing with this thing Dx I had an idea at first but since the legs didn't really work out and I cropped the image to hide them it just looks... odd now. Here's a WIP anyway:



The face on the side is just a shot of the image at full size. I bet the picture is super bright and colorful and full of weirdness, but it looks normal on my laptop :< Everything is just a lot paler and more pastel when I draw on it and I can't see how it really looks until I upload it somewhere and switch computers.

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Wowww I'm so tired ;_; Not from drawing or school, but just.. tired. Well this thing really evolved from a sketch, but I'm not all that displeased with it. However, some things just seem kinda bland/meh/bad to me, but there's no way I'm going to bother changing it now xD I never did say I was a perfectionist anyhow. Or motivated. I've never done water or spent so much effort on a background before though, so I guess that's an accomplishment ._.

But yeah, she finally has a more decent name that doesn't remind me of sashimi-- Ući Napada~ (Family name is first, though.) Instead of looking like one of those typical fangirls who make up a random string of syllables that kinda sounds japanese when squashed together (.... or doesn't ┐_┐) for their OC names, I decided to look like a different type of clueless foreigner that makes it a bit less conspicuous xD Her name is the Croatian word for attacks or attacked (from the word Napad, or maybe it was the other way around;; I'd feel too stupid asking my parents though.) All the names from the possible story are Croatian and picked for their meanings and ease at foreign pronunciation, but whether or not I ever start writing out the story, nevermind drawing it, is the question of importance right now. I've got a lot of backstory written down but I don't quite know where to go from the beginning. Or even where the beginning needs to be.

Oh how I wish school would end sooner :/

Joke Blog

Finally made it, but didn't do anything to the layout yet: Click~

I'll be compiling anything I find funny on there. Anything spoiler-ish will be labeled as such. If any of you have anything you think I should put on there, show me xD

OMG SQUID

It's her again, yes Dx I'll think of a new name for her later to replace the temporary "Shimi" which sounds so horribly lame :< I didn't even like it when I made it up but didn't really care enough at the time to change it. Anyhow, I think maybe I'll actually do something with her character some day *_* I keep getting ideas before I fall asleep but I can never do anything about them because I have school the next day and need the sleep... and then I forget my ideas in the morning;; So far she has an octopus-like lantern thing (or maybe I should make it a cuttlefish! O3O) and likes to kick people in the face with painful shoes. How bland, I know :<

I'm seriously surprised at how fast I was able to do these. I used reference on the action pose but it was actually a lot easier to do than just plain... standing there xD Except the foot. I really suck at drawing feet now. Before it was never a problem because, well, I never bothered drawing the whole body xD At least I'm starting to get used to doing hands a little. As for the stuff in the back, it's really just me trying to make one character look the same from all angles and in multiple sketches again.

~(*-w--*)~

Some practice with painting again. It's so amazingly therapeutic... and eats time like nothing else T__T Sigh.

Ha, don't ask about the crown on Deidara xD This picture isn't about these two.. rather they're a part of a larger image, but they're the only things that are colored and the sketch isn't even done yet. I have an idea of some parody/fan comic-thing to do in the future just for the hell of it (it's really complete crack, but I can't get rid of the concept no matter what) which I may or may not have the time or motivation to accomplish, but I would like to try only for the sake of saying I can actually push myself to do something *_* If I do end up starting it then... don't expect much really Dx

I must say like the contrast Oro and Dei make in this little clip though :3

GOOD GOD

Omgosh o_o I... I drew something by pencil today. This is like, the first time I've done it since I got my tablet. Though I guess that wasn't all that long ago, but it really feels like it was. I was afraid I'd forgotten how to draw without the undo button ;; And it's a good thing I didn't do this on my Stat review D: That was a close one.


It's Katara from Avatar :O Another fine example of how my random doodles of no particular person seem to turn into fanart 99% of the time. I guess fanart is way more fun to do unless I actually seem to have an interesting original character or real person in mind, but nah >_>

AGHwefegwg, I can't seem to think or form proper sentences today. I think it's because of how I woke up :/ I always feel like crap when I wake up during deep/REM sleep (aka, during the most necessary state of sleep if you want to feel rested and sometimes right in the middle of a realistic dream.) I realized my alarm had been ringing a few times before I even perceived it and then I had to spend a few minutes reorienting myself to reality, trying to figure out what day it was, what happened recently, where the hell I was, etc.;; But I was having such a pleasant dream xD It involved waiting in line to do some AP thing (with my dad? o_o;), visiting a small shop that resembled a small Discovery store, and following around the most adorable pig that the shopkeeper owned (and she coincidentally somewhat looked like Shizune.. so maybe the pig was a cuter version of Tonton Dx.) I thought it was annoying at first but then it oinked and then... well, it was so amazingly cute *3* I wish I could have hugged it before I woke up, but I was falling asleep even in my dream.

Oh and before I forget:
The last day of school (that Friday) seniors do not have finals. That day is for graduation practice and crap. The Friday before the week of finals is when seniors have 5th and 8th block exams. The Thursday of finals week is 1st and 4th block, so all of us but Chig get out early I believe :O So if she can exempt that one then we can leave early on a Thursday~~

For the lulz

(They added this into the scene where Team 7 encounters Kabuto before they see Sasuke for the first time in the time skip Dx I tried not to laugh... really ;_;)









(If nothing else was funny, the *wheeze* certainly compensated xD)



(Not a gif but I thought it was hilarious for some reason.)
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I have oh so much more stuff like this that I should post on some separate blog or something, though most are Naruto related since I got most of the recent ones from the Narutofan forums. And yes, I've reached the level of actually wasting my time reading Naruto forums lately out of pure procrastination from homework, but there's just so much win to be found in people's sigs and the joke forums :O! Soon I guess I'll make a separate blog for rambling such as this and all my other recent posts, but for now I must do something productive (like actually doing some of that website stuff :/)

OBREJECTION!

Oh... I need someone to whine to :< I didn't think I'd be this disappointed
in not being able to go to UT. I started to like the idea of staying closer to home and being a warm place, but I guess it's my fault for doing whatever I did (or most likely something that I didn't do right) to get me a rejection from them anyway. That and applying to somewhere that's cold σ_σ; But at least Chicago is a freaking nice city~ Big plus from me.

But yeah... I'm still surprised that I didn't even get into the university. There's like 3 chances of getting in if you apply for 2 majors: First choice major, second choice major, and then the general undeclared liberal arts thing. But I failed at all three of those and got offered the CAP program. Yeah, no thanks Dx Austin is the only nice place in Texas anyhow. So I guess this time next year I'll be in Illinois *_* This is going to be interesting.

Random semi-creative image/manga coloring to keep this blog doodle-full (feel free to shoot me for the bad joke):












/angst over, time to start being excited about living in a city o_o;

Woahz

This was fun to do~ Maybe I'll do more stuff like it in the future. Just ignore all the weirdness xD
I think it's and older version of Nan... but I have no idea really Dx I like Nan with short hair though, so maybe not.


And I hope I can get better at doing these kinds of doodles :O It's so much easier when you can be messy and still get a nice result. I'm so fed up with line art.

And spring break is almost gone, noooooooooo T___T *whithers away*

Misc.

Ok, since I don't actually have any other blogs (that I use) for just rambling I will vandalize my own sketch blog to suit this purpose.

I finished Death Note... finally! :O It's been, what, like two years since I started reading it first? I must say I'm not satisfied with the ending, but for unknown reasons. Maybe it's just the fact that it's over that doesn't sit well with me possibly Dx And I'm not sure what to think of Raito. I like his character but at the same time I can't stand him and his use of people that are close to him :S The mental breakdown was pretty cool though, although it made me laugh at times...

At least now all the humorous Itachi-Kira parallels make more sense.
And I wish Matt and Mello appeared more. I really loved Mello's voice for some reason and I'd always wanted to see Matt since I stopped reading the manga before he was introduced, but their time was so short :< I mean, we see Matt maybe twice while Mello is on the phone, then again as he throws a smoke bomb while in a car, and then not long that after he gets a couple of holes put through him. Though I hear that the 2nd part of the anime is a bit different than the manga? Also, it took me until I reached the last few episodes to actually start missing L (and, of course, Watari.) They were so much more interesting than Near and his groupies.

And out of curiosity, who was the guy from Death Note someone suggested I cosplay 2 years ago? All I remember is that he had a suit... which I think they all do. Was it Mikami? xD

(Forgive me for sounding ADD. I was never very good at written expression and structuring, sadly;)

Oh, and one last thing: the latest chapter of Naruto.
My comments? Lolwtfwasthat. Kira strikes!

I think Itachi missed the target a little.

And I need to stop getting attached to villians xD

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Alright, since I can't post rambling on my doodleblog without a doodle to go with it, here's something I did a few days ago and stopped because it looked like it wanted to eat me.

Avatar

My first real attempt at Avatar fanart/sketchy/quickthing...

mission failed D: I cut off the bottom because it was horrid and threw in a random background. I had this super-awesome detailed scenery idea, but obviously I stopped caring before I even finished coloring the two characters. Not to mention only the skin came out alright, I think. And Momo, wtf I can't draw animals xD At least practicing with a new brush turned out to be pretty fun.

One of these days I'll actually work on my blog's layout. The weird pictures were supposed to be only temporary D:

I hate making titles

So yesterday I had the weirdest feeling all evening. I was horribly agitated for absolutely no reason and I could not make myself do homework any longer. I had the horrible need to draw something (mostly a few types of specific things) but I also had horrible idea blockage, as is the usual. So I started drawing whatever and this is what happened. I'd call it a speed painting if it didn't take me 2 hours to do with all the freaking photoshop errors and crashing. To think that something we paid not that little of an amount for is always F-ing up didn't exactly help my irritability last night either...

Thank god spring break is soon =_=

Yo

I don't know, really. It's probably better if you don't ask.

Happy (late) V-day D: Guess I have to wait until next year to do all the card ideas I had. Now is time to pack for web competition instead ;_;

Ikkicon

Messed around with some images but couldn't be bothered to write any comments:
Click <3

Picture credits go to Bessy's camera and uploading-ness and Fenna's picture-taking :D

Lulz DX

I wish I could post stuff more often but there's just been too many things going on for me to even doodle much :< Lately I've been addicted to pixel things xD I never really cared too much about them in the past but they're actually kinda fun. I'm working on a new devID (which I've been slacking on because it's so tedious;;) and have only done a small fraction of it o_o Here's a little bit so far:


On a different subject, Lora, Bessy, and I went to Ikkicon on Saturday (and some of Friday with Chiggy.) The only things I really thought were nice about it was the hotel and the game room (even though I didn't get to play anything... but they had Narutimate Accel and Brawl, omg ;____; And not to mention there was a guy dressed as a banana playing DDR.) I didn't get to take any pictures on Saturday except one of an amazing Oogie Boogie since something as simple as taking a picture was near impossible with my costume.

I must admit that I had a ton of fun doing my first real cosplay and that it would have never turned out well if we didn't have Bessy doing all that work @_@ *praises* Hopefully I either find some pictures of us or Bessy puts up her pictures soon so I can show them off~ I still find it hilarious that I couldn't stop laughing when I entered my first con because of all the cosplayers and now I'm actually doing it myself...

Items bought:
(1) Akatsuki Bag (So fitting for me;; Too bad it already has a tear though.)
(1) Piplup keychain

There wasn't a whole lot worth buying at Ikkicon, unfortunately. Hopefully I'll find a few things I was looking for at A-kon.

+3+

My need to draw anything has been satisfied and hopefully now I can go back to doing homework without my hand unconsciously sneaking towards my tablet~

This atrocity is my first presentable speed painting ._. (Wasn't timed unfortunately, but it was pretty darn fast D:)




It's the hair freak Shimi with different clothes and slightly different hair. And yes... there is a background at last :D Is it not beautiful? _*cough*

I know, it's almost the same exact position as the other picture. I fail when I try to draw the mirror of this (with any face) for some reason. It just doesn't feel natural to me :| Guess that's another thing I need to practice.

Madness

My hand is so amazingly cramped ;___; I was just doodling around yesterday, mostly aiming for an ANBU Sakura and it turns into this... monster o_o But drawing random characters that I will never use again is what I do best and is to be expected anyhow;



Somehow Sasuke is back in Konoha and is convinced to become an instructor. I was thinking of little background stories and strenghts/weaknesses of each of the kids as I was sketching, but I doubt anything will come of them.

If you see any horrendous flaws that don't require redrawing the whole thing or any stupidity regarding the names (which is probably inevitable with my knowledge of Japanese names ._.) feel free to point them out and murder me with them.

Team Sakura is already colored, but I like uniformity so it's just B&W like the rest for now. There's a 90% chance I'll actually finish this picture, since I had a lot of fun doing it and it hardly took much time or frustration to do :D _{(Just major hand crampage)}

WIP of colors:

Yes, Nan looks like a mini-Hidan _{(May he rest in pieces)} She's not intended to be related to him or anything- I was just satisfying my urge to draw him since I fail every time I try to draw the real one. That and I love his character design xD.

And on a (far more) duller note, school starts again tomorrow and I'm finding it hard not to be a little depressed :< Just one more semester of high school... I can do this...

>:O

>:[

Mm.. I had this much done like a week ago but I realized that I was really bored and annoyed with what I had so far. I thought I'd just post the most finalized version it will most likely ever be and go on with my life instead :D



I need some serious BG and anatomy practice ╥_╥