Let's not blow things out of proportion here...

So I am shamelessly obsessed with Heath Ledger's Joker performance now :|

I could go on and on about how I was affected and impressed by that movie, but thousands of people have done it already in a far more professional, sensible, and dignified way. And it kinda sucks that this has happened... you know, considering what happened to the man and all.

I had no idea who Heath Ledger was when I had heard he died-- I still have yet to see Brokeback Mountain (though I'm about to in an hour or so) and the only other time I'd seen him on screen I didn't really pay much attention to the movie (in the Brother's Grimm as I've just discovered). I'm sure his popularity must have increased tenfold at least due to his performance in TDK and I must admit that I'm one of those many, but I really regret not having known of him sooner. Though then again, maybe it's less depressing this way :/

But seriously, the Joker is one of the best acts I've ever seen. Wait, no. It was the best, period, in my personal opinion. I still get a little irritated when I see people accusing the movie and the Joker's success as a direct result of Ledger's death because I know I'm not the only one who saw the movie preview and thought "holy crap that guy looks really awesome D: I need to see this movie ASAP" without realizing at the time who the guy even was. Hell, I still didn't know who he was until after I saw the movie and did some rabid fan-obsessiveinternet research to see what kind of person it was that could move me in such an inexplicable way. Srsly, I have no idea what to make of my obsession xD (But I assure you it's no fan-girl crush or anything-- just an overwhelming admiration and fascination for Ledger and the Joker respectively.)

It's true I've always enjoyed those movies involving antisocial, schizophrenic, or some such other mentally afflicted sort of serial murderer who's cold-hearted or morally lacking yet highly intelligent, and the Joker displayed just about all of this and much more, which in the movies pretty much equals ultimate win in my book. I'd give anything to see the Joker in another movie but it probably just wouldn't be the same. Ledger pretty much became the character in order to make it so convincing and it is that dedication to self-improvement and the ability to accept imperfection while remaining confident in your own abilities that I found so iconic. In the past I've for the most part avoided the celebrity/movie-star "craze" and idolatry thinking it was on the verge of seeming petty and even a little shallow, but I think this time I can make an exception, even if it's just because his Joker really did put a constant smile on face in each and every appearance he had C:

I really have no idea why I wrote all this out other than the fact that I probably just needed to vent the bottled up sense of awesome, win, and epic. I can't take it anymore D: Maybe I need counseling. Or maybe I just need to see the movie two or thirty times to get it out of my system. I would really like to see it in an IMAX theater but I think I may have to wait to be in Chicago first :/ And maybe make some friends who will go with me and fast, before it's out of theaters xD

Oh, and here's some fanart that I F-ed up with a weird pose. I don't think my attempt at intimidation was very successful ~_~ It looked alright at first >:| I didn't have the heart to fix it though since after I took a break from it two days ago and read some sad articles about Ledger's death I couldn't look at it anymore. But I will forever love the Joker for dressing as a nurse. I do love a man in uniform +0+

Edit: Oh yeah, and Akatsuki sucks now :[ Thanks, thanks a lot Sasuke. _Ass.

Inadequate

A real speedpaint, for once. Her name is Lily, which I stole from one of the frogs from Animal Crossing. Ignore the spaghetti arms. And inconsistent shading. And other stuff.

Happy summer days *-*










Still working on this and was originally intending to add in Lee to complete the team, but I'm not really sure I even want to continue. I'm really starting to lose faith in my abilities :/ I feel like I've come such a long way since I started to really draw almost exactly a year ago and yet I have so much more to go and I keep getting discouraged. I'm not really even sure why I feel like this all the time, off and on ~_~ I guess I must continue to be patient and wade through more crappy productions until I can finally feel accomplished and better as an artist.

Standoff

I'm afraid to put this up out of sheer amounts of stupidness D: (Yes, she's pretending to be pointing a gun with her fingers.) But I had fun actually making it. I have no explanation for it, though I really had the urge to make something with this color scheme so I attempted a not-so-speedy speed paint. Don't be surprised to see a more developed image using a similar idea since I kinda like the colors and want to make something with them that actually looks good.

And I tried changing my layout, as you can see, but got bored halfway through ;_; Who knows how long it'll stay stuck like this.

Nom

More WIPS. After that week full of nonstop Harry Potter absorption I sorta lost my desire to draw much Dx Hopefully it comes back. This is just some stuff I have been working on but took a break from.



The first image is like my third attempt at bookmark things for as many Naruto characters as I could do (planning a total of 51 atm @_@ Got 22 done) but as soon as I take a short break from them and then come back they start to look uglier and uglier and so I just stop doing them... >:| I definitely have to go back and fix most of 'em all over again-- so many that it would be more efficient to make a list of ones that are ok Dx;; But I will persist~




This is "The Harvester", an unoriginal and weird interpretation of autumn. I'm planning on doing all four seasons (since Autumn is holding on to a ribbon belonging to Spring) but who knows. Not much ever comes from me putting up WIPs though :< I end up trashing most things I put here before I finish.


The last are more developed sprites. Hopefully that's not the finished version of a main character because he looks so... meh xP But the importance of it is that I finally have a base to work off of for others. I'm not too sure how I feel about doing pixel art :/ I either have fun doing it or get too frustrated or bored being limited so few pixels.

Gwar

One day I swear I will actually finish/change the layout style and images Dx Blah.

Well yesterday I got back from A-kon 19 which was tons of fun, though it seemed like it was lacking a little when compared to the prior year :/ It sort of felt like I wasn't as much of a part of the con as last year, but it's hard to tell what it really was that was different. I also didn't really get all that much this time around except some cute pins, some pokemon figurines that weren't Arcanines or Growliths >:< , a squid (from Mario Sunshine) keychain thing, and an Akatsuki cloud T-shirt (finally found one >:O). I'm not that disappointed with what I got except the fact that I brought far too little money ;__; Oh well. Also, my poor Tobi mask kept falling apart at the Velcro and so that wasn't all that pleasant to wear;; At least a lot of the art I saw in the artist alley was inspiring~ Oh how I wish I could be as good as people like that already..

On another note, my dad and I have been brainstorming a game we could make together. For the past few months now we had been trying very unsuccessfully to think up a product we could sell online that would be useful to others or some sort of service that would attract visitors in order to make money in a different way than just work. It's likely that we'll be going further with the idea and so I'll have stuff to keep me busy with all summer. So far we've decided that it would be a pixel-y tiled game thing (like RO or Pokemon) but I have no idea about the actual story, setting, or purpose yet xD I was playing around a little with character design and made my first moving sprites ever :O It was amusing to do, especially trying to get them to look like they weren't dancing in place or jumping..;;

It's a start I guess.

And I have no idea what I'm doing with this thing Dx I had an idea at first but since the legs didn't really work out and I cropped the image to hide them it just looks... odd now. Here's a WIP anyway:



The face on the side is just a shot of the image at full size. I bet the picture is super bright and colorful and full of weirdness, but it looks normal on my laptop :< Everything is just a lot paler and more pastel when I draw on it and I can't see how it really looks until I upload it somewhere and switch computers.

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Wowww I'm so tired ;_; Not from drawing or school, but just.. tired. Well this thing really evolved from a sketch, but I'm not all that displeased with it. However, some things just seem kinda bland/meh/bad to me, but there's no way I'm going to bother changing it now xD I never did say I was a perfectionist anyhow. Or motivated. I've never done water or spent so much effort on a background before though, so I guess that's an accomplishment ._.

But yeah, she finally has a more decent name that doesn't remind me of sashimi-- Ući Napada~ (Family name is first, though.) Instead of looking like one of those typical fangirls who make up a random string of syllables that kinda sounds japanese when squashed together (.... or doesn't ┐_┐) for their OC names, I decided to look like a different type of clueless foreigner that makes it a bit less conspicuous xD Her name is the Croatian word for attacks or attacked (from the word Napad, or maybe it was the other way around;; I'd feel too stupid asking my parents though.) All the names from the possible story are Croatian and picked for their meanings and ease at foreign pronunciation, but whether or not I ever start writing out the story, nevermind drawing it, is the question of importance right now. I've got a lot of backstory written down but I don't quite know where to go from the beginning. Or even where the beginning needs to be.

Oh how I wish school would end sooner :/

Joke Blog

Finally made it, but didn't do anything to the layout yet: Click~

I'll be compiling anything I find funny on there. Anything spoiler-ish will be labeled as such. If any of you have anything you think I should put on there, show me xD